[[ *Living In My Own World __

Thursday, September 21, 2006

My sis gave mi her student handbook today and asked mi to read a story in it. On the top of the page wrote "selfless". Having nth to do, i read. It's quite touching bahx. It's abt how wei da mothers are. They would sacrifice anything for the sake of their child. So i'm gonna share it here. The story goes...

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment... She cooked for students & teachers... to support the family. There was this one day during elementary school and my mom came. I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The nest day at school... "Your mom only has one eye?!?!" Eee.. said a friend. I wished my mom would just disappear from this world. So i said to my mom, "Mom... Why don't you have the other eye?! If you're gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?!!!"

My mom did not respond... I guess i felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that i had said what i wanted to say all this time... Maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished me, but i didn't think that i had hurt her feelings very badly.

That night... I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, and then turned away. Because of the thing i had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, i hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye. So i told myself that i would grow up and become successful.

Then i studied real hard. I left my mother and went to Singapore to study.

Then i got married. I bought a house of my own. Then i had kids, too... Now i'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom.

This happiness was getting bigger and bigger when...

What?! Who's this?! It was my mother... Still with her one eye. I felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. Even my children ran away, scared of my mom's eye. And i asked her, "Who are you?!" "I don't know you!!!" as if trying to make that real. I screamed at her, "How dare you come to my house and scare my children!"

"GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!"

And to this, my mother quietly answered, "Oh, I'm sorry, I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared out of sight.

Thank good ness... She doesn't recognize me. I was quite relieved. I told myself that i wasn't going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life. Then a wave of relief came upon me...

One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house in Singapore. So, lying to my wife that i was going on a business trip, I went. After the reunion, I went down to the old shack that i used to call a house... Just out of curiosity.

There, i found my mother fallen on the cold ground. But i did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand... It was a letter to me.

"My son... I think my life had been long enough now... And... i won't visit Singapore anymore... But would it be too much to ask if i wanted you to come visit me once in a while? I miss you so much.. And i was so glad when i heard you were coming for the reunion. But I decided not to go to the school.

For you... And i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i was an embarrassment for you.

You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mom, I couldn't stand watcing you having to grow up with only one eye... So i gave you mine..."

Life goes on...

10:26 PM