I've always been trying to keep the dying flame of hope deep in my heart alive for these 3 yrs.. Hoping and hoping tt it wun died on mi.. But still... Yupx.. When i woke up this morning.. How i wish everything tt i knew from ytd was juz a dream.. A terrible night mare or something.. But it's not.. It's a reality... and i can't run away from it anymore..
Yea.. When she told mi ytd tt's she's abt to be attached.. Little did i expect myself to say something like.. "Congras.." I felt terrible inside.. I felt like crying out.. Chose to remain quiet most of the time to prevent my tears from dropping and i managed to control them till she's gone.. Didn't want her to see my tears though.. Aft all.. it's the smile on her face tt makes mi love her..
Love can't be forced.. It's supposed to be selfish and she has the right to choose her own happiness.. Wellx.. Certainly hope she'll be happy with he guy though.. Could see the happiness in her eyes whenever we talked abt him and stuffs.. Yeas.. Who can i blame other than myself? What have i done in these 3 yrs except waiting quietly in one corner?
Guess it's good enuff for mi if she still treat mi as a friend? Perhaps it's time to close down this blog.. Aft all.. the main reason i started this blog is hoping tt she will be reading and knowing i'm waitng for her... But now.. It's over.. Thr's no pt keeping this blog anymore.. I lost the game.. yup..
21.14PM.. i'll rmb this timing forvea.. Rmb when u told mi to rmb tt timing foreva 3 yrs ago? Yup.. Guess u have alreadi forgotten.. Though we have only stead for like 2 weeks? Still.. Thanks for the happiness u brought to mi.. It's the best 2 weeks i ever had.. Images of us going back home from school tgt and stuffs flashes through my mind every now and thn these few yrs.. But i noe.. Everything will be history now..
One last thing.. Juz stay happy and xin fu k.. So tt i noe i lost to someone better.. Someone who is able to gif u the happiness u seek for..
Sorry guys if i'm moody the nxt few days.. I juz need some time... yeax.. sry..
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11:59 PM
Went to gym aft class.. Guess aft mths of no running, the stamina tt i trained has gone down the drain le.. Started wif speed 13.5 today on the treadmail and i can barely made it to 1.2km mark lar.. Forced to take 2 40secs rest be4 reaching 2.4km lorhx.. clocked 11:97 mins.. Damn.. and i cheated by holding on the support on the treadmail.. -.-!!!! grs!!! Needa train~~
Badminton is next.. Super duper shag larhx.. played for the first hr and was resting most of the time in the second hr.. Thr's these two guys thr damn pro larhx.. and they came asking us to challenge.. Wanted to accept one lorhx.. But no one wanna accompany mi.. Bah~ Juz play play mahx.. can see how strong they are also.. exchange pointers... -.-! Nvm.. hahas.. Save the trouble of being thrashed badly by them oso..
'Coma' time when i reached home.. Imagine when u're slpy, shag and tired.. Slping is the best thing to do lorhx.. My right arm felt dmn tired now larhx.. Super uncomfortable lorhx.. Thn when i'm trying out the flght stimulator juz now.. My right hand kept shaking larhx.. Omg.. thn the damn plane kept flying out of position.. Die larh~~ I needa do well for this flight stimulator thingy larhx.. I need my gpa back!!! Arg~~~
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10:39 PM
Freak.. I met this weird guy on bus.. Know the long vehicle bus? Yea.. i saw standing at the circular space when this guy came and stood beside mi.. Didn't realli care abt him at first cuz i'm listening to my mp3.. He kept stomping his fet for nth larhx.. Freak him lorh.. Thn talk so loudly on his mobile.. Piang.. i'm listening to my mp3 and could still hear his voice larh! slap him lorhx.. Thn when thr's seats, i went to sit to avoid him.. And hell.. thr's so many empty seats larhx.. He feakingly want to sit beside mi.. And keep fidgeting around.. Grs! Roar~~~
Reaching Bugis.. i met wf first be4 meeting the rest.. Hmm.. Went to this zhen zhong thingy stall.. Wellx.. I dun noe why tt place is so crowded wif ppl larhx.. They dun have many variety of food thr lorhx.. And their air-con is quite lousy i muz sae? Even the hair is stronger larhx.. hahas.. Hmmx.. Guess it's the soup tt makes ppl go back thr? I wun wanna go back lorhx.. It's kinda worse than marina lorhx.. Thr's like nth to eat except hotdogs.. For the whole night we are eating hotdogs lorhx... -.-!!!!
Daryl drove us to marina sq aft tt to play pool.. Ha.. As usual? Wy beat us all flat down.. Piang eh.. He's too pro larhx.. Nxt time play pool dun call him can?! LOL... hahahas... Had a little chat at pacific coffee company aft tt be4 heading home.. Yawns.. Watched manu vs boro when i reached home and it's freaking disappointing can? 1-1?! wtf... Good thing chelsea drew wif newcastle juz now oso.. so yea.. phew~ hahas.. =)
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10:46 PM
Project 2 has alreadi started.. and i'm assigned to the schematic becuz my eecad got A.. But little did my grpmates knew i nearly have to retake tt subject.. But nvm.. I got one of the easier job though.. Juz hope all projects end quickly.. But wait.. Once projects end means attachment starts!!! FREAK!!! hope i get into eurocopter.. Quite interested in the company aft wed's tourism class whn ed told mi abt it.. The company seem to be so interesting!!!
Last but not least.. i wanna tell someone something..
"There's something called the mirror.. Take a look at wat's in it be4 commenting.."
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11:28 PM
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10:11 PM
Went to my grandma's hse and eat aft tt... Be4 gg home again.. Wanted to slp de.. But somehow.. kelvin sms-ed mi to ask mi out.. Piang.. Thr goes my slp.. grs.. When i reached home, i went str to my bed and switched on my lappy.. Though i had actually wanted to juz switched on the lappy and go into a "coma".. Apple and alvin gave mi no chance to do tt.. hhaas.. And in the end.. I'm forced to go out by apple.. -.-! super shag~..
Met alvin at around 4pm be4 heading to apple hse.. Yawns.. Guess whr did we go? We went to changi airport thr.. the coastal thr.. To look at planes.. Hhahas.. Today super alot of ppl can.. so cramp larx.. Thn gt a couple thr i think they sian half lor.. see so many ppl come disturb them.. hahahas~~ farni lar! But kinda like watching the planes took off lorhx.. Imagine i'm the one inside piloting the plane.. hmmx... HAHA!!!
Vivocity is nxt... Went thr and slack.. Wellx.. saw many things thr i wanted to buy sia.. Omg.. But i alreadi overspent this mth.. So no choice.. have to wait till nxt mth.. Damn.. the clothes thr damn nice lar.. and alot of variety lorhx.. Grs.. Muz go shopping more often liaox..
Hmmx.. yea.. abt tt lar.. Super shag now.. BYes.
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11:03 PM
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10:16 PM
Spent the whole day doing project project project!!! I'm so tired larhx.. So not used to waking up early and worse.. to play game.. Why will someone want to play a same game for 8hrs everyday.. It's damn boring larhx.. Freak~ Hope tml is my last day.. thn friday no need to go.. No review on friday pls!!!
Hmmx.. Quite blurr-ed over my timetable lorhx.. So many changes can.. And we're like making things worse by trying to ask for classes to be move fwd and stuffs.. Omg.. i'm like.. Why the heck? Now thr's an email tt informed us tt those hu went to summer sch will have to take another module.. But yet the module didn't appear in the timetable.. So i'm like.. HUH?! wat the... =x!!!!
Grs~~~
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10:37 PM
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10:38 PM
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10:13 PM
Aft reading two of lkh novels.. One can't help but starts thinking.. What's true love actualli.. Wat's the real meaning of true love.. Many ppl gave the model answer which is "So long the person i love is happy, i'm happy.." So.. Tt's true love? In the novel, true love means someone who would die for his/her loved one.. Perhaps every1 has their own view on true love..
Kinda been attracted to one of the quote in the novel though.. It goes something like "I've seen many love tt failed to within the test of time.." Now wat is tt "love" supposed to mean? Has the true love tt one past seek had fade off? So.. How many true love can one experience in life? One may think it's true love when he/she saw the person they like and woo them crazily.. But when the relationship ends and someone else appears.. true love again huh?
What am i waiting for actually? True love? or juz a chance.. A chance to brg mi back to the past.. Seriously.. I dun noe.. Wellx.. How good is a guy when he dun even noe wat's he waiting for.. or rather.. wat's true love.. Been hoping i could write my own destiny.. Juz like wat's in the novel.. But it proves to be futile.. Perhaps i should juz face the fact.. Reality is cruel.. True love dun realli exist..
But somewhr deep inside my heart.. i choose to believe they exist..
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10:29 PM
Went to ECP today.. Juz in case some of u ppl dun noe wat's ECP.. it's east coast park.. hahas.. Alvin drove mi and apple to somewhr at eunos, which is kelvin's place to have lunch.. Wellx.. the meeting time was supposingly to be 11am.. But every1 ended reading the novel "Follow Me" by low kay hwa.. Omg.. come to think of it.. His books are marvellous.. The way he writes his novel.. Wellx.. it's beyond words for mi.. Perhaps it's becuz my english is lousy.. But it's damn nice.. I'm actually buying all his books can?! hahas..
Ok.. Let's see.. had lunch at some coffee shop at eunos thr.. Didn't ate anything cuz i dun realli have the appetite.. Was actually feeling very very slpy.. and maybe.. half of my mind is still in the novel.. "Jurong eat mrt station.." Bah~ i'm crazy.. Nvm.. Thn went off to ECP in roger's car.. While kelvin went off in alvin's car.. For a moment.. I thought ECP would be very far from eunos.. So i thought i could get a nap or something.. But hell.. It's so near larhx.. Oh god..
So we rented bikes from some very spacious bike renting shop... And it's freaking cheap can? It's onli like $2/hr lorhx.. hahas.. So dirt cheap larhx.. So we rented 3 hrs and decided to cycle all the way to somewhr near changi airport to look at planes.. DAMN! Been a long time since i last cycle lorhx.. And it's VERY tiring for mi.. Esp upslope and stuffs.. god~ Still.. we managed to get our way thr but becuz of the blazing sun, we decided to turn back.. And unluckily, we were greeted by a truck which was carrying some smeely stuffs! And hell!!! The fresh air turned into smelly "gas"! Oh damn damn damn!!!
Of cuz.. we went off from tt place almost immediately.. Wellx.. Any ppl wif common sense do tt.. Settled down at some benches aft "running" away from the smelly place.. Played dai dee and looked at planes be4 heading back to the shop to return the bikes.. Hahas.. and poor apple injured her foot while trying to do "stunts".. hahas.. Rest at MAC for awhile aft tt.. Omg.. It's till today tt i realised when u ordered hot fudge sundae, u can asked for more hot fudge.. When i said more... It meant MORE! lolx.. Some pics from Mac..
Kelvin, The Unknown, Alvin
The Unknown revealed..
Apple and RogerWent out of Mac and decided to head to some place wif the fence to view planes.. Hmmx.. Quite a fun trip thr lorhx.. Two cars are constantly trying to outrun one another.. hahas.. And the one i'm on ended up gg the wrong way.. hahas.. We made a very very big detour to get back on tracks larhx.. hahas.. suay-ness can? When we reached thr.. Kelvin and Alvin are alreadi thr.. =(.. Plane viewing is nxt.. And of cuz.. More photos..
Nice sky.. =)
I uses colgate.. hahas..
Hahas.. The car behind mi belongs to alvin..
Mi, roger, alvin, kelvin, apple..
Second try.. =(Went all the way to macpherson aft tt to have dinner.. Lol.. It's damn damn damn far can? lolx.. We travlled many expressway lorhx.. hahas.. Freaking far.. And we passed by places tt i didn't even seen be4 larhx.. hahas.. so crazy lorhx.. and perhaps.. ONly kelvin and alvin noes how to go.. Juz in case u ppl dun noe.. both are in another car.. =s! hhas.. But still.. we managed to rreach thr safe and sound.. hahas.. Here are some photos to end this entry.. =)
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10:29 PM
The novel is about two jc students - jacky and Gwan.. Wellx.. They knew each other since secondary sch and both of them were like quite unfortunate? Jacky lost his dad when he's young and Gwan lost her parents when she's young too.. Wellx.. Tt's nt all lorhx.. Jacky is diagonsed wif brain cancer and Gwan, a mental illness named OCD.. Gwan had always thought tt she had a curse as when she curses someone, tt someone coincidentally die accordingly.. And jacky is the guy who cured her.. indirectly maybe..
Wellx.. The most interesting part of the novel is that thr's a code to be decoded in the sms jacky sent to Gwan and it's nt told.. So readers have to crack it themsleves though, which i managed to do so btw.. =)
Hmmx.. thr are many quotes i like in the novel.. here're some examples..
"What if you have no tommorow to look forward to?"
"But jacky once told me, boys shall not cry. We are born with boarder shoulders to let girls cry on our shoulder"
"You're like a North Pole of a magnet bar, and jacky is also like the North Pole of a magnet bar. There's no way for both of you to be close together.There's a force taht will always push both of you apart.This force is called the obstacle, like interest differences, communication problems and etc..
However, if you put a metal bar in between, both you magnets will tick to it. And you'll be close to each other.That metal bar dissolves the force tt pushes both of you away.And tt metal bar is wat we called love."
"Love is a simple thing. It's either you love, or you don't. You can try everything to prevent yourself from loving, but it all boils down to this: Either you love, or you don't."
"Somone once told me the longest wait is not created by the amount of time passed, but by your mind."
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11:59 PM
Had dinner at lao pau sat aft tt..
Anyway, this bubble tea flavoured ice cream sux!!!
See the amount of food tt crazy girl ordered? Omg lorhx.. I think i dun wanna grow fat oso cannot lorhx..
Apple, Me..
LooK like she's posing for some advertisment rite.. farni lor her..
Eat till damn xin ku lorhx...jpg)
HAHA~Aft barely 10 hrs of slp.. i went to sentosa wif yy, rj, two of his cousins and one of his cousin's friend.. Super tired lorhx.. But dun wanna ps.. so juz go lorhx.. Played beach soccer wif some of the teams thr.. hahas.. Super li hai lorhx.. and nt tt rought oso.. Fun sia.. Nxt time play soccer go thr~ =).. But beach soccer is damn tiring!!!!
Hmmx.. Onli two pics to show from sentosa.. too tired aft the soccer game...
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10:50 PM
