[[ *Living In My Own World __

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Yup... the day i fear has indeed came.. I have been preparing myself for this day to come.. But little do i expect it to come so soon.. Thought i would have handle it wellx.. But i can't.. I'm devastated... Very..

I've always been trying to keep the dying flame of hope deep in my heart alive for these 3 yrs.. Hoping and hoping tt it wun died on mi.. But still... Yupx.. When i woke up this morning.. How i wish everything tt i knew from ytd was juz a dream.. A terrible night mare or something.. But it's not.. It's a reality... and i can't run away from it anymore..

Yea.. When she told mi ytd tt's she's abt to be attached.. Little did i expect myself to say something like.. "Congras.." I felt terrible inside.. I felt like crying out.. Chose to remain quiet most of the time to prevent my tears from dropping and i managed to control them till she's gone.. Didn't want her to see my tears though.. Aft all.. it's the smile on her face tt makes mi love her..

Love can't be forced.. It's supposed to be selfish and she has the right to choose her own happiness.. Wellx.. Certainly hope she'll be happy with he guy though.. Could see the happiness in her eyes whenever we talked abt him and stuffs.. Yeas.. Who can i blame other than myself? What have i done in these 3 yrs except waiting quietly in one corner?

Guess it's good enuff for mi if she still treat mi as a friend? Perhaps it's time to close down this blog.. Aft all.. the main reason i started this blog is hoping tt she will be reading and knowing i'm waitng for her... But now.. It's over.. Thr's no pt keeping this blog anymore.. I lost the game.. yup..

21.14PM.. i'll rmb this timing forvea.. Rmb when u told mi to rmb tt timing foreva 3 yrs ago? Yup.. Guess u have alreadi forgotten.. Though we have only stead for like 2 weeks? Still.. Thanks for the happiness u brought to mi.. It's the best 2 weeks i ever had.. Images of us going back home from school tgt and stuffs flashes through my mind every now and thn these few yrs.. But i noe.. Everything will be history now..

One last thing.. Juz stay happy and xin fu k.. So tt i noe i lost to someone better.. Someone who is able to gif u the happiness u seek for..

Sorry guys if i'm moody the nxt few days.. I juz need some time... yeax.. sry..

Life goes on...

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